Oh! It's the Season Finale
on hard truths, bravery, and new beginnings
Dearest Friend,
It’s another year of growing older and I am full of life.
I’ve just turned 28 and I’ve been contemplating what it means to live. I think I have a clumsy idea of it. To live is to face the truth at every turn, even when it hurts, even if it’s not what you want to hear. To live is to be brave, to look at fear, grip its hand, and pull her into the unknown.
I’ve grown a bit older (and hopefully wiser) and I’m trying to be brave. Brave enough to stand up for myself. Brave enough to be fighting for my needs. Brave enough to close a chapter so beautiful and full of goodness and say “Thank you for the experience, here’s to the next adventure.”
The other day I was talking to my mother about how when new things come into your life, sometimes it means shedding your favorite comfort blanket. It means the ending of places that felt too comfortable to give up. It’s taking off the rose tint and seeing situations as they truly are. I told her that I understand the process of making space for new things, people, and favorite places. I also told her that the process has a tendency to hurt.
It always hurts to leave or say goodbye. It hurts to realize your comfort zones aren’t meant to stay if you ever want to grow. It hurts to realize you’ve reached the end of something precious to you. But that’s the thing, endings are always sad because it means the story is complete. Everything that needed to be told has been told. It ends and now there’s a new story to dive into.
I have a friend who jokes about me being a main character. I’m embracing the sentiment and seeing the endings as part of the season finale. One of my favorite things about the season finale is the moment of catharsis after all the tears have cleared up. You see the main character smile with hope or excitement or acceptance. It’s the moment you see her get ready for the new season.
I had my little main character catharsis moment on the drive to work. The sun beamed down on me, and I could feel myself glow. I was listening to Maisie Peter’s album The Good Witch and I felt this sigh of release as the roads blurred together and sunlight kissed the apples of my cheeks.
I am full of life and I am excited to see who I am becoming.
To a brand new season,
Dhan xx